What do I properly?

why should I meet with two people?I am confused whether I do this right?I am afraid of what I do now will become a nightmare for me, I love you kevin, but the same love that you gave to me does not suit me in the heart you make me to love other people more, sorry if I hurt you but I also can not force me heart sorry if I take this as a rough..

sorry if I am selfish but I truly can not force me to heart for you kevin sorry if this painful for you..
byee kevin I hope you can be better than me :D