I fear falling in love with him

I try to hold I love this to him I would not if I fall in love with him,I do not want to feel the pain as first but I also can not feel pity to cover him I heard each of the words he spoke that word is so romantic so beautiful I love the feel to him the more he makes me fall in love more and I can not hold this I feel pity I am also more afraid if I love him more..how to deny this feeling?fall in love with him all the same I will feel pain as first I saw him jealous with another woman.did he know that now I truly love him?Does he feel the same as me?oh goddd! I am heart broken when he was with the other.if he knew the feeling I am now to him?hmmm soo very difficult! coba aja lo bisa bener2 jadi pacar gua hmm pasti gua seneng bgt dan pasti gua bisa lupa sama tuh cowok sialan!
gua tuh jadi sayang beeneraaaan sama lo kalo gak smsan sama lo sehari aja gua udah kangen kaya sekarang rasanya tiaap hari gua pengen sama lo terus aduuuuh kenaapaa gua harus suka orang kaya lo sih?gua gak mauuuuuuuuuuuuu terlalu sayang sama lo karena gua udah tau sifat lo gimana hmm tapi mau gimana lagi?ini perasaan yang gua alami sekarangg dan emang gak bisa di boongin!